At school I used to be very grumpy. I’m not a ‘morning person’ and I would be prickly with anyone who tried to talk to me before midday. Come lunchtime, I would perk up considerably a become friends with me friends again – lucky that they were lovely enough to stay my friends! Anyways this terrible moodiness returned to me today and followed my feelings of being a lost teenager from the previous evening.
Anyways it’s a bit like groundhog day on a juice cleanse if like me your day revolves around getting and drinking. I had a similiar night’s sleep as the one before – weirdly waking at 1am, then 4am then before my alarm. I can always get back to sleep again but I don’t normally have such disturbed sleep especially when it’s just randomly waking up. I start the day still feeling very angry and emotional about the day before.
Yesterday involved selling my share of my business after a very difficult process and a less than satisfactory outcome and then an argument with my husband who is currently across the other side of the world. This morning I have bags left over from tears the night before and an inadequate sleep. Other people in the juice cleanse group are talking about energy boosts. This I long for but have not experienced.
I decide to go for a green juice for breakfast to get it out the way first as it’s my least favourite colour. Let’s just say although they are all delicious, the green one tastes the most ‘healthy and clean’. I think this one has courgette in and here’s where you can find some of the health benefits. I may be mistaken but my skin feels better – it’s not as dry and the skin tone is more even. Possibly the purple cabbage?
I park my car and see that I have a missed Skype call from my other half so I give him a ring back and for some reason I end up crying – nothing to do with him, I am just angry from the business meeting the day before and struggling to make peace with it. I can’t remember the last time I cried or was this emotionally wobbly but I assume it has nothing to do with the juice cleanse. The book I read focussed on the benefits and the physical side of things, although I didn’t read it page for page.
I get into work and give in to the urge to send out prickly ‘keep you’re distance’ vibes. A bit like Lucy Liu’s character in Ally McBeal who used to growl at her. Now, up until now no one at work has asked any questions about my containers in the fridge or my newly acquired juice habit. But today 3 different colleagues ask ‘what on earth is that?!’.
‘A vat of juice!’ I reply from gritted teeth. I am really not feeling myself today and I am being outwardly unfriendly. This is followed by a ridiculously immature fall out with my husband via Whatsapp about something that really shouldn’t be an issue for me. I must just be grumpy and needing support due to the business situation, I try to convince myself. But an email from a yoga teacher who coaches people through ‘Juice Feasts’ and who for the past 7 years has only eaten a raw food diet, Susan Reynolds, told me that it is often the emotional reactions to juice feasts that surprise most people the most rather than the physical side. As I said, it’s not the biggest physical challenge ever. Susan offers health consultations as well as juicing support and says that it is the emotional stuff that she coaches people through the most. It is with Susan that I will be taking part in a week long yoga retreat in Costa Rica.
This is a comfort and once I can see that I really had no argument, no real issue and was just grumpy, I say sorry to those who I was grumpy at and feel a lot better, perhaps the 2 are linked and I’m not losing it…I really feel that some yoga will be very beneficial as well especially as yesterday I didn’t do any exercise. Don’t get me wrong, I don’t exercise daily by any means but I think you need a bit of an endorphin boost to replace the warm and fuzzy feeling that a latte or a warm meal would give you. I think that as I’m not tempted to stray from the juice path and don’t seem to have any cravings or withdrawals so to speak of, that it is convincing me that I could continue this. I wonder if I could go a bit longer myself. Or even just replace a meal with a juice for the next week or so.
I don’t need caffeine. If I really fancy a latte after this I could have one but I could also easily not.
I don’t need that bacon. I am seriously considering being a vegetarian after this.
I do need to eat healthy and try to continue juicing. I am going to try to incorporate 3 day cleanses into my life each month.
Day 4 and I’m warming up again, running to the loo less emphatically and feeling in the swing of it. I think that it has taken 3 days for any kind of cleanse to take place and now it’s a case of my body balancing back out.
I have decided to take this week easy as I ease into post Christmas exercise, so I have signed up to a beginner’s class to revisit the basics and make sure I have got the foundations on a good level as a good starting point to really focussing on ashtanga yoga this year. The aim of this class is to get you to a confident enough stage so that you can take part in Mysore self-practice classes. I’ve been to a couple of these but I’m not very confident with the sequence of asanas yet. As it happens this teacher is starting this course slowly going right back to basics which is fine but I don’t do much of a work out. I am feeling a lot calmer though and am grateful for the practice.
I have had my spoonful of honey in my herbal tea for the past couple of nights. Honey’s medicinal so it can’t affect things too much I think and it’s just so lovely to have a different texture on my tongue. Also every night I get home and look forward to an early night in bed. This doesn’t really happen but instead I am going to sleep at a more normal time than I did before which would be anything from 12am-2am. Now I’m usually in bed by 11pm and feeling ready and content to sleep. This is a nice change as before I would become awake again at night and try to fit in as much as I could before bed. Maybe juicing will help me beat this bad habit and turn me from being a night owl zombie to a normal person at bedtime and in the mornings which would be great.
Lesson Learnt today: Doing a Juice Cleanse can be an emotional detox too!